March 25th 2021 - She is talking to me right now!

She is not happy with me, surprise, surprise.  I swore I would never betray her trust and I did it right here on this website.  I can't take that back, I can only do better from here on out.  She says she doesn't need anyone in her life right now, I don't understand that.  She is so lovable and adorable she deserves someone in her life who adores and worships her.  She owns me, I don't own her.  She has my heart and my love and I don't know what to do about that.  She said I didn't destroy her relationship with Mark or Rani so that's a good thing. I told her I don't want to destroy her, that I love her and always will.  She said that it will take time for her to trust me again and I understand that.  I destroyed her trust and I don't deserve it, I will have to win back that trust again.  She said she doesn't want to see me.  That breaks my heart.  I was going to offer her $5k if she would see me for a week but never got that far.  I could offer her $50k for a week but that seems excessive.