Friday, January 14, 2022

January 14th 2022 - If I don't get another injection I will lose my family.

My mother is on the verge of another stroke, my father has threatened to kill me if she does as he will blame me for her stress and high blood pressure.  Its 161 over 101 right now, last time they informed me at about 11am today.

I went over to my parents house at around 10am this morning to pick something up and drop something off.  I was scheduled for an appointment to be re-injected at 1:15pm but had been thinking about it and wanted to discuss it with my parents.  I sat down at the table and said to my mother I had been having second thoughts about being re-injected with a cocktail of chemicals again.

Well this was just like setting off a bomb in the kitchen.  You would have thought I had pulled a knife and tried to stab my mother.  Everything escalated, everything.  I couldn't help myself, I had to respond to things they said and was eventually driven out the house by my mother telling me to leave.  

They said I was I was a threat to them, that I threatened their health by not being re-injected. One minute everything was fine and the next minute they wanted me out of their lives because I am having second thoughts about re-injecting my body with a cocktail of strange chemicals. Clearly it helps with symptoms and keeps many out of hospital if they catch covid, but what is it also doing that I don't know about?  Anyway, so I am questioning the wisdom of going through with this and thought could have a reasonable discussion about it and instead they are both on the verge of a stroke.  I'm a cruel man, my father said to me.  I'll get back to that.  

I am seeing my life dissipate before my eyes over covid and vaccinations just like I saw it happen in slow motion with Sheri.  I made that happen and I am making the breakup with my parents happen.  I have to put a stop to this, it has all gone downhill since Christmas Day December 25th 2022.  Every time I see them it gets worse, our relationship gets worse and worse with each passing day. 

This is all completely unintentional.  I am not trying to set them off, I didn't walk into their house this morning thinking, I know, I'll be cruel to my mum and dad today or whatever they are thinking.  Yet they think I was cruel to them and am being cruel.

I can't seem to say anything right these days at all.  Something, everytime I see them sets my mum off.  She is a powder keg.  We need to not see each other for a while, maybe three months or so, have a cooling off period cause something is broken in our relationship and it's not clear to me what it is but something is seriously wrong.  It shouldn't be like this.

I find this all terrifying.  What happened today happened because I said I was having second thoughts about being injected for the second time.  What happens when it is the third? or the 4th? or the 5th? and so on? At this rate both my parents will be dead from stress. 

Something is seriously wrong here.  I say I am questioning the wisdom of being injected yet again this afternoon, they say I am a threat to their health all of a sudden and need to take the injection to keep them and me out of hospital.  But I have Ivermectin, Vitamin D and other drugs ready to deal with early symptoms of covid just like Joe Rogan did.  I bought it on the black market. So I'm ready.  You on the other hand could have another stroke which would be devastating.

Please calm down.  I won't call again.  I'll try not to contact you.  This is not right, I shouldn't be the cause of this, I really don't understand what is going on or why. 

In truth the only explanation I can rationally come up with is that my family are wedded to vaccinations like being in a cult.

They might think they have science on their side but I don't see it, all I see are a sea of questions about the wisdom of continuously injecting oneself with a cocktail of chemicals that have unknown short term risks and long term effects.

My father said I was a cruel man today.  Let me make a confession, I am having a hard time feeling what they are feeling.   I can't emphasize with how they feel about this issue.  If that makes me cruel so be it, maybe I have become cruel over the years.  My Mum wants me to move away, so does my Dad.  I have not become a better son, the pressure over these injections have made myself a pariah to my family.  
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On another note, Sheri did not call me today, this morning in fact.  She said yesterday she would text me this morning if she wanted to talk and she didn't.  She told me some intimate details about herself yesterday that I cannot share but made me hopeful that she would want to spend more time with me.  Disappointingly that was not the case.  I constantly worry that she will cut me off.  Yesterday I almost encouraged her to cut me off if that was what she needed to do.  

She kept asking, how can I trust you again?  How can I trust anyone again?  Good question.  I think we can grow to trust each other again. I hope we can, I want us too.

Thursday, January 13, 2022

January 13th 2022 - It's Thursday again, 2am, Sheri Day!

Today is my Sheri Day!  Today I get my ration of an hour, hour and a half of Sheri time a week.  I have to make it last and make the most of it as it's all she gives me.  Spoon fed...

to be continued...

5:30pm...So I like to think of myself as a writer.  Just looked at the requirements for a writing assignment in college or wherever, I could never write like that.  I can only write what comes out in the order it does.

What happened today, tree came down yesterday, big pile of wood in the lawn, I haven't touched it.  Thought about buying a new TV, a 65" and came real close a few times.  Decided 55" is better in the space as it sits in front of a big bay window.   Now decided not to get one at all. Got annoyed with one of my tenants, George as he wouldn't take five minutes to help me and Yves did.  Very annoying but I got over it. 

Called and talked to Sheri for quite a while today, good talk.  More progress made.

Told her my plan was for her to come up here for Christmas this year, she laughed.  I imagine her in my arms, both us weeping at finding each other again.  I'm going to make it happen, this story will have a happy ending, I am determined and can see it happening.  


Wednesday, January 12, 2022

January 12th 2022

One more day then I get to talk to Sheri again.  Wish she would talk to me twice a week if not every dam day but after what I did to her what can I expect really?  

So I'm getting a big maple taken down in my yard.  My kind neighbour offered to take it down for me and we spent yesterday afternoon trying to do so.  In the process things went from bad to worse.  We now have 2 wedges and an axe stuck about 20 feet up in a tree trunk that refuses to topple.  My neighbour Paul thinks it is cut about 3/4 of the way through and was cracking so there's hope.  

Tied a rope around the tree above the cut and hooked it on to the bumper of my truck.  Have four deep tire tracks in my yard now from trying to pull the tree down...Bad to worse like I said.  My sister has arranged for someone to come and take a look at it this morning, see if there is anything they can do.  I borrowed my Dad's come a long so we might end up using that.

Friday, January 7, 2022

January 7th 2022 and previous

January 7th 2022 - My mother has just told me I'm evil because I write about my life and the people around me.  She had a stroke on July 3th 2021 and right now her blood pressure is 156 over 95 so she could have another stroke at any time.  Especially if she is calling me evil...

January 6th 2022 - Talked to Sheri for about an hour an a half, she didn't sound like she was in a good place but she still talked to me.

January 5th, 2022

My mother has just written to me asking: "What are you going to do now?"  

Well, I'm going to write this blog post, been thinking about it for days and should get it started. 

Who am I?  My name is Alex, I am 54 years old, divorced twice, currently single and live with two housemates at my home on Gabriola Island in BC, Canada.  Up until this past Christmas 2021, I had a sister, a father and a mother whom I hope I still have a relationship with. 

I like to write.  I write daily, have a few blogs, twitter accounts and a Facebook account where I like to share my thoughts and feelings. 

On Christmas day, December 25th 2021 I was going to go, as I do every year, to my parents house for Christmas dinner.  My cousins son and his girlfriend, who had flown in from the US, a complete stranger to our family, were there visiting.  My sister and her husband were going to make dinner for all of us.   I thought well, it's Christmas, I'll ask my two housemates what they were doing.  Yves had plans, but George, who is about 78 and well known to Gabriola locals, had no plans.  So I asked him if he would like to come to Christmas dinner, he said sure!  I said would first have to check be ok so I called my mum and dad who said fine, ask your sister first.  So I called my sister and asked if George could come, she said sure.  Who was vaccinated or unvaccinated never came up that day until I saw this fateful picture taken with my phone that afternoon.

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That's me in the Tie-Dye.  Round the table left to right, my sister ETC ETC 

My first thought on looking at the picture was that it reminded me of "The Last Supper" with the youth, represented by my cousins son, at the head of the table, about to have their privacy forever lost in 2022. 

My next thought was that we were a mix, a cocktail of different jab status.  Our vaccination status ranged from George who is unvaccinated with 0 jabs, me with 1 jab, my sister and her husband with 2 jabs, my parents with 3 and I never asked my cousins son or his girlfriend how many times they had been jabbed so a ? really.  I didn't know if they had 2-3 jabs, assumed at least 2 but could be 3.

A tweet started coming to me and it looked something like this:

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The first title I came up with was something like "Who will end up in ICU first!!!"

So I created this tweet and sent a copy to family to get their reaction and feedback.  Big mistake.  I should have asked someone outside the family first.   Personally I thought it was funny, I still do.  My mother, who had a stroke on July 3rd of this year spent two months in hospital, is now crippled down her right side and the rest of my family did not find it funny at all.  So my mistake was not immediately deleting when they got upset.  The sequence of events, the timeline was I posted the tweet, emailed my family with a copy of the tweet.  Well my sister immediately reported my tweet to twitter.  After just having had a video removed by Youtube I was curious to see what twitter would say in this new era of censorship.  I was more curious about twitter than about the feelings of my family.   Why?  Because I thought they were over-reacting to something harmless.  I didn't harm anyone, insult anyone.  

I eventually deleted the tweet after some hours of arguing with my sister in messenger (which I have yet to read back).  She was right, I was insensitive.  But I wasn't being evil, what I see today is evil being broadcast and implemented daily.  This discrimination against the unvaccinated is evil and downright scary.  "The most dangerous people in history have always been those who have tried to pretend that they were morally justified in oppressing others."   My own father says he himself would kill the unvaccinated to protect the vaccinated and free up hospital beds.  To me, that's a sign that he has lost his moral compass.  The only explanation I can come up with is he has been brainwashed into this vaccine cult that grows like the virus daily.  But more and people are questioning the wisdom and the path of our leaders while people like Trudeau double down and single out the unvaccinated more and more.  I am getting off track as is my want.  I'll get back to this.

So I delete the tweet after less than twenty four hours where it got no retweets, likes or comments so nobody saw it.  I agreed to mask out everyone's identity from the picture.  Not good enough, my family want me to remove the picture and all mention of it.  I couldn't believe it, I still don't.  I showed them another draft of the tweet:

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Nope, not good enough, not allowed to use the picture at all to make any points about covid, vaccinations or masks.  Because my tweet goes against my families beliefs they want no part of it.  Fine, it will be from an anonymous account with no ones identity revealed.  Still not good enough.  Well I started crying about this online on my Facebook page and some of my friends sympathized with me while my sister argued with me about what I was doing. 

The tweet is factual it is the truth yet my father calls it a lie.  I cannot comprehend his logic in coming to that conclusion.

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I think I have common sense and am able to think rationally.  I don't understand all the emotion and trauma this has caused.  My sister and brother in law say they want nothing to do with me and I am not welcome on their property.  This is serious, I don't know how to undo that.  My father says he has blocked my email and threatened to block my phone.  My mother and father have both told me I am not welcome in their house for the time being. 

I feel surreal, I am being censored by my family who want no mention or connection between them and I online.  In other words, do not use words like mother, father, sister, brother in law.  Crazy, I have self censored myself a lot.  They want no mention of Dec25th brought up anywhere.  I think they are ashamed and embarrassed that they let George and I have dinner with them, that's what I think.  I already know my mother is ashamed of me, she told me so.  There are many reasons for this but lately its because I am able to express my views online to a wide audience that includes my family.

My family is unable to accept the truth even when it is before their very eyes.  They are so ingrained in the dominant narrative that anything that deviates is rejected.  It's a religion, a cult devotion so strong that nothing can break it, I have seen and witnessed this devotion with my own eyes.







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Whatever you think of their behavior, no one can now deny… The unvaccinated are a persecuted minority. Demonized by the media, ostracized by society, oppressed by the state.

This rhetoric is dangerous. We are heading down a dark path. The unvaxed are being setup as the scape goat for the countries problems. History shows that this never ends well.

 It’s increasingly clear that the covid response will follow the same pattern as WMDs and the Iraq war. Eventually everyone will deny that they ever supported lockdowns and mandates. Yet many disastrous policies will continue long after the lies used to justify them are exposed.

 What is in these vaccines and why is there a global effort to inject them into the body of every human being on the planet—by any means necessary? That is the question every sane person is asking. Coercion, bribery, propaganda, and censorship are not tools used by good guys.

 It’s time we all spelt it out plainly my friend: We are witnessing a global palace coup that suspends our rights - under the guise of an emergency that has been proven to be manipulated - by a network of fascists who seek a New World Order governed by technocratic corporatism.

Self-censorship is censorship. Removing concerned voices regarding the vaccine from Twitter damages free and open discussion. Equally, harassing people with opposing views to the point of self-censoring for fear of the mob has a similar effect. Sad!

 Who thought covid would turn into your rights being removed unless you take a jab that doesn’t prevent anything other than your rights being removed!

This spring/summer "Covid" will transition into a more obvious economic control agenda, with introduction of CBDCs, introduction/expanding of no jab no job and #VaccinePassports morphing into social/carbon credit systems. It will be interesting to see how the public will respond.
 
 I don’t know who needs to hear this, but pretending you’re slowing the spread of COVID by supporting a bunch of totalitarian mandates that impose enormous costs on children, minorities and the poor does not make you virtuous or caring. Actually it just makes you a fascist.
 
 
 •Macron says his millions of unvaccinated countrymen are “not citizens.” •Biden tells parents to keep kids away from the unvaccinated. •Trudeau blames lockdowns on the unvaccinated, calls them “misogynists” and “racists.” This rhetoric is appalling, coordinated and dangerous.
 
 
 
 

Saturday, January 1, 2022

January 1st 2022 - New Years Day!!!

It's a new year, a new start for as all.  Will have to write about what has happened to me over the last several days but that can wait.  

Big news, I joined legalporno.com and have spent about $300 in two days buying videos!  Figured that would be my Xmas present to myself. 

Made a couple of posts on their forum, here is my hello to all at pornbox.com lets see what happens...


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