July 18th 2022 - What a weekend and what a day today will be.

I had a godshot weekend, I am totally floating on a pink cloud after what I experienced on Saturday that I am going to share with you all.  

I finally quit drinking for good some time in November of 2021.  That's when I came to realize I was a total failure and alcohol had ruined me.  It ruined my marriage to the woman of my dreams, it made me lose 420 Bitcoins, all of which I have no one but myself to blame.  I am now completely dry, not one drop of alcohol has crossed my lips in eight months, I never thought I would see the day.  It has taken me 40 years to get here.

Back to the weekend.  My dear friend Joel asked me if I wanted to go to the Gabriola AA camp-out at Descanso Bay, Gabriola Island this past weekend.  Doing anything with Joel is fun and a blast so I immediately said yes!  Well it was AWESOME, I feel so alive!  The love and the energy was fantastic, 93 people from AA and Al-Anon gathered to support, love, hug, care and connect with one another.  It was a wonderful experience.  I cried when we all said the serenity prayer.  I cried when the group did a countdown led by Joel and his friend Peter, starting at 40 years sobriety all the way down to eight days.  I was so moved as I past by my fellow alcoholics and sufferers who all reached out to me to touch my hand or even hug me.  We all cheered "I Love My Life!" I do.  I used to hate myself, I used to hate my life, I used to be miserable and depressed all the time, now I am alive.   It's not the bi-polar medication I have been taking for years it's the removal of alcohol from my system bit by bit.  I am coming back. 

I want to experience what I felt on Saturday again, I have done two AA zoom meetings already!!!   Not the same at all...I felt love in that group, I felt touched by it.  It was a wonderful feeling and reminded me why human beings crave love.  It is the meaning of life.  

Today's Daily Reflections is titled "GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE" and how appropro is that for me after losing everything and now coming back and rebuilding including my relationship with Sheri.  Which is going really, really well I am pleased to report.