6 more days to go, take a deep breath, will go by fast. Time always does, its the end of 2021 already and I remember Jan 6th like it was yesterday.
Sheri said to me on the phone she is worried about two things; one that I will hurt her again, which I won't, and secondly that I will abandon her again. I want to be emotionally intimate friends, I want her to trust me with her love again. One thing is for sure, if I ever get her in my arms again I am never going to let her go.
I talk to her all the time in my head and imagine what she will say in response. I am so much more aware of her feelings now than I ever was when we were married.
Sheri, as Tasha, made piss drinking erotic, kinky and normal Look at Legalporno.com now, full of piss drinking videos from hundreds of girls. Back in our heyday, 2004-2007, Max Hardcore was the most extreme pornographer in the business and he went to prison for it. But girls coming into the industry would be steered to him first as everything else they did would be easier. Same with Legalporno.
I never abused or mis-treated Sheri in any of our videos. I didn't degrade her or put her down, we made piss drinking sexy. Sheri made piss drinking sexy. Piss drinking is a very kinky fetish and to many the very thought is too disgusting to imagine. Sheri made piss drinking erotic, sexy, loveable and shared that love with the world. As Tasha, she was one of a kind. I wish I had realized I was recording history when I made all those videos with Sheri. I am very good at making bad decisions.
Sheri now says doing this website was the worst mistake of her life. This is because I doxed her and all the shit she had to deal with because of that and continues to. PLEASE STOP.
She enjoyed making this website and the videos at the time, but now regrets it because of what I did. I hope to eventually change her mind about that and get her to look at it differently.
Have realized something today, I am obsessed with Sheri. She is the only good thing in my life other than my family and friends. I couldn't bear it when she cut me off, so much so that I was willing to expose her as I figured I had nothing left to lose, she wasn't talking to me anyways. I left it up for about a month I think. I took down her really personal info after a week and other stuff after a month. Why did I leave it up so long? I don't know. I'm getting off track...
I am starting to understand how Sheri feels. How she feels about what I did to her. She was always so attuned to me, she could read me so easily, well now I am becoming more attuned to her. I have realized that she to me today is how I was to her when she told me after making love that I was her whole world and I knew that right? I said yes I do and what did I think to myself? Instead of thinking I am the luckiest man alive I thought Sheri has to make a new garden without me. And she did. And she has. Now I am looking at her going you are my whole world, I need you in my life, I can't live without you just like she did to me all those years ago. And now we both have our own gardens and I want Sheri to jump emotional ship back in with me.
Sheri doesn't want to fall back in love with me again. She is deliberately restricting herself from me and limiting my access to her. She doesn't want to let herself fall in love with me again because she doesn't trust me, but she wants to trust and love me again.
Merry Xmas to all my loyal lurking readers whoever you are.
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