I got used to her not being around. I spent so much time with my parents I could no longer imagine living with her in Salem, Oregon. Not that I'm sure I ever did. And I never gave it a chance, I just used it as an excuse to drink 3 liters at least of wine a day if not 4 or 5 sometimes. I also got stoned every chance I could, any escape, lots of excuses. Then, when she would come to visit me on Gabriola I would wish she wasn't there. I don't know why, it all makes no sense now but made so much sense then.
It's Sunday, its snowing, Sheri is closed and has been since yesterday. I don't know why she hasn't reached out to me other than she talked to someone and they talked her out of it.
I just want to chat with her, find out about her life, find out how she is doing. Is that so hard for her to do? Must be. I don't want to talk about feelings, well of course I do but I can stop myself. I just want to catch up, find out how her father is doing, how was her trip to Disney Land, what has she done since then? Is she still going to Mexico every year with Rani? Little things. Re-connect.
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